The Price of Time

•May 22, 2008 • 1 Comment

The cost of a thing is the amount of what I call life which is required to be exchanged for it, immediately or in the long run. – Henry David Thoreau

I’ve been thinking about the cost of things lately – specifically, the cost of time. We all talk about spending our time, but do we really realize that we are…spending our time? Are we spending it the way we really want to? Who are we spending it on? How much of our time do we give to ourselves? To our dreams?

It’s worth pondering, since it’s something we can never buy back.

Each of us are alloted a specific amount of time, the problem is none of us knows how much time we have…and living day after day, year after year sometimes it feels like we have an unlimited supply. You know those moments that feel like they’ll never end. They do. All moments end.

Time is a very special gift from God; so precious that it is only given to us moment by moment. – Amelia Barr

We all learn something about money, but little of us ever learn much about time. Sure we may hear or say things like time is money or that was time well spent or you’re wasting your time. But do we really think about time as the amount of life we are spending?

Life is a temporary situation.

On the upside, it’s possible that I have more than half of the time of my life left to spend. On the flipside – well, let’s say that possibility got me asking some pertinent questions.

How am I spending my time vs. how do I want to spend my time? Who am I spending it on? Am I giving myself enough time? Am I spending time on my dreams? Am I giving my children the best part of me when I spend my time with them? How much of my time is spent in my head – thinking? How much of my time do I give freely to others? Am I making a difference with my time? Do I care about my time? Am I paying a high price for my time? Because the price is my life. What are the true costs of things? How much of my life is spent on collecting and maintaining things? How much energy goes into my time? Okay, okay, I’m going to stop now…

I often get caught up in the doing of life rather than the living of it. So, I wanted a reminder. I wanted to contemplate this time/life/cost scenario, then get out of my head and into my life. Here’s my little reminder of what I’m ‘up to’ or what I’m ‘aspiring to’ as I spend the time of my life.

I’m going to fill it with wonder and awe. My favorite places to find wonder and awe are in nature, with animals, babies, children and in all forms of art.  Kids are unique in this list because they can talk and everything to them is amazing and cool. They want to know how things work, they ask the best questions and say the silliest things. Wonder and awe are found in these things because they are present or were created in the moment.  So, if you’re looking for wonder and awe – you can’t be wandering about in your head ruminating about the past or planning the illusion of your future. You have to be here – NOW. And then – wonder and awe are everywhere.

I’m also spending it on things that give it meaning. Seeking things that enrich it. Things inspire me. That make me love and fill my breath. Things that feed my mind, widen my smile, push me to risk and teach me to be vulnerable. Things that extend hope, overflow my heart, nourish my generosity and give birth to more dreams. For anything that provokes me to laughter and convinces me -I can. And lastly, for all things that plead to be created.

I’m aspiring to all these things, because when I’m done spending my time, I want to have experienced my life.

So, now what? Now that I understand that time is precious and I never want to waste a single moment? Now, well…it’s late, and I’m going to go spend my precious moments doing one of my favorite things — dreaming.

Samaia’s first prayers

•May 21, 2008 • 1 Comment

At night I’ll ask the kids if they want to pray or not – sometimes they do and sometimes they don’t.

9/1/05 – 2 years old: Samaia’s first prayer was her squinting her eyes, mumbling some unidentifiable words and then saying, “GO”

Another of Samaia’s favorite prayers – to make me laugh – goes like this -

“Thank you a this God, Amen – that was an empty prayer”

8/23/06 – 3 years old: Her first long prayer went on and on and on … here’s what I could remember that night…

God, I love my mom and my Babick (how she pronounced Dominic) and my Babick happy and I love my toys and I love my pink shoes and I love my Babick and I love my barbies and my mom said 2 dollars (this was for new dress up shoes from her $2 allowance) and I love my pink shoes and my Babick cranky and I love pink and I love my friends a lot and I love my kitties a lot and I love my Babick and my toys and I love my Daddy and I love my friends a lot and I love Jessica and I love barbies and I love pink and I love shoes and I love horses and I love my Babick and I love my room and I love my kitties a lot and I love my friends a lot and I love my Babick and I love my room and I love my shoes and I love pink and i love my dresses and I love horses and i love pink. Amen.

Some Playtime with God

•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

9/1/05 – Dominic at 5 years old

Dominic has been talking to God a lot lately. He prays in the car to himself – it goes like this – God, please don’t let Adara die, or Daddy die or Mom or Samaia cuz I love them so much God. Thanks God. I love you God.

Today he was asking what these men in the picture were doing (an article in a magazine about religion and prayer) I said they were praying. “Oh, they have a God too?” I said yes, that God was in their hearts. He proceeded to tell me how his God follows him around everywhere. He was a bit confused when I said told that God was in his heart – “What? He’s not out here?” I said, “He’s everywhere.”

He then said, “Okay God, you get out here and I’m going to open the door.” He opened the door to his heart and pushed God out then shut the door and locked it. He then played with God. They played swords and chase and he was really happy. A few times he killed God -or at least stabbed him in pretend play. Before he went to sleep I overheard him say, “God, I opened the door, go back inside and I’ll lock the door. Okay.”

A few weeks later…my dad was in town. He’s never talked to Dominic about religion or God. Dominic went up to him and said, “I like your God Papa.”

A perfect prayer

•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

1/7/08 – Dominic’s prayer – 7 1/2 years old

Thank you a this God, I had a beautiful day, I hope you had a good day God and I am so thankful for my friends the most and more than that I am thankful for my family and more than that I am thankful for myself God. And I am doing my best to take care of myself God and if something happens and I get hurt I will try and heal myself and if I need help will you help me please God? You help lots of people and I promise I will help you someday. I promise I will. And I love you so much God and you are my favorite God in all the world. Amen.

The kids always start out their prayers with, Thank you a this God, I don’t know how it started, but it stuck and I love it.

It’s not all rivalry

•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

“Mom, I love my little baby.”

Dominic (4 years) said this about his little sister Samaia. She had just turned 1.

No shoes

•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

8/20/04: I wanted my three year old Dominic to put on his shoes so we could go in the store. He told me…

“I don’t want to wear my shoes, I want to wear my feet.”

After Uncle Don passed away

•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

10/10/06 – Dominic (6) was talking about missing Uncle Don. We talked about his body getting sick and his body dying but that his spirit went back to live with God – and that if he misses him he could say a prayer to him. This is his prayer.

Dear Uncle Don, I miss you and love you and I hope you follow your dreams now. And if you want to come back and live with the family, the family will always be here and we love you Uncle Don.

On the way to school

•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

9/20/06: I was driving Dominic to school and 3 year old Samaia was being quite bossy from her carseat. I said, “Samaia, stop bossing us around,” and Dominic chimed in, “Yeah, you’re not the boss of around.”

Through the eyes of a child

•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

I have three absolutely amazing children.  I feel blessed to be there mother – even when I’m overwhelmed, tired and need some quiet time.  My oldest child, Adara is all grown up.  She turned 22 this past March and graduated from nursing school this May.  I am so proud of her – it just gushes out.  I have two more kids – Samaia is 4 and Dominic is 7.  Some of my favorite times are listening to them make each other laugh, how they boss each other around, how they help each other when they’re hurt and when they say their prayers at night.  I’ve been recording some of the things they’ve done and said and I’m adding them here….through the eyes of a child.

Listening to the Listener #1

•May 15, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Here are a few of my favorite things…

I have had some insightful, peaceful, scary and downright trippy experiences with meditation and prayer. I like the analogy that prayer is asking and meditation is listening – thus a conversation is born.

As a child I talked to myself pretty much constantly – and when you talk to yourself you begin to realize that you are talking to someone – the listener – and if you’re quiet – they’ll answer…